Alright, so I found this meme earlier today on LJ and I just HAD to do my own. Alright, so here goes! =D


Choose an animated pairing. It cannot be from a movie, it must be from a show. It does not necessarily have to be a completely cannon pairing, but it should not be a crack-pairing. List the names of the pair and the show.

My pairing: Naruto Uzumaki and Hinata Hyuuga (Naruto)


In general...

- What is it that you like most about the pairing? Be descriptive! :3

It is pure fluff my friend! I just love that Hina-chan is so devoted to him and loves him whole heartedly, even when everyone else hated him. After all those years, she's still in love with him. Also, their personalities are a bit different (Naru-kun is loud, slightly aggressive, hard-headed, and can be annoying XD while Hina-chan is quite, shy, lovable, friendly, smart, soft, and although she seems weak to others, she's very strong and has a kind heart) but that makes it even cuter! I just love them both together. It's hard NOT to love them!

- Why does the pairing make sense to you? I.e., why do you see a relationship working between the two characters?

Well, all his life Naru-kun has strived to become stronger so people will notice him and stop hating him. However, because of that thick-headedness and determination of his, he failed to see that all along there was someone there who already noticed him. Hina-chan has always been watching him from a distance, gaining strength from his own determination and self-motivation. He became her role model for strength and her true love. They help each other become stronger and gain happiness.

- What is the greatest aspect of the pairing?

Hina-chan's constant blushing and fainting whenever Naru-kun is near! XD Hehe. It's so adorable!!! It makes for a good fanfic (many of them actually!! XD).

- Describe the pairing in one word. (Romantic, passionate, dysfunctional, comedic, etc.)

Destined.

- Are there any major (or minor) flaws in this pairing?

Perhaps the cutest concept of this pairing could be considered a flaw since it has kept Hina-chan from confessing. Her shyness is the only thing keeping her from confessing her love to Naru-kun even though she has tried to do so many times already. Another could be the fact that Naru-kun has a demon inside of him - the source of everyone's hatred for him - but because of Hina-chan's devotion and love for him, I highly doubt she would ever abandon him if she found out (I'm not up to date with Shippuuden just yet so I don't know if she has found out about the kyuuby just yet).


In regards to the show...


- What drew you to this show in the first place?

Actually, I stumbled across it on T.V one day when I was watching Rave Master (or some other anime, I can't remember which) and figured "Ninja? That's a stupid idea for an anime". Of course I was gravely mistaken when a couple of weeks later I stumbled across it yet again and fell in love. I slapped myself for thinking poorly of it in the first place. XD

- Were you immediately infatuated with the pairing when you began watching the show/when the two characters entered, or did your affection for it develop over time?

To be honest, nope. When I first saw Hina-chan, I thought, just like Naru-kun, that she was weird. XD I wanted to first support Naru-kun with his infatuation with Sakura but that died quickly. Her constant ignorance of him and aggressivenes towards him annoyed me. When Hina-chan began to get more spotlight during the Chuunin exams, it was then I fell in love with her character. She was just so adorable and full of determination, devotion, and inner strength. I saw her cute side as well and fell in love with the pairing.

- If the latter, as there any particular moment that won you over or convinced you to like the pairing?

The chuunin exams was a time that really sparked my love for the characters. I didn't really begin to fall for the pairing until Hina-chan fought against Neji-san.

- What is your favorite moment within this pairing?

I love when Naru-kun ran into Hina-chan by the waterfall and the next morning, he was bragging to Kiba-kun about a beautiful and mysterious girl dancing, unaware that Hina-chan was that girl. XD It was so funny and cute! And Hina-chan was blushing like crazy! Hehe XP That’s just one of my many favorite moments.

- Do you have a least favorite moment within this pairing?

At the moment, I don’t think I do. XD

- Is one member of this pairing your favorite character within the show?

Both are! Hehe. I love Naru-kun because of how hard he tries and how much he cares. I love Hina-chan for her kind heard and strong spirit. She never fails to make me feel hopeful.

- Is this pairing your OTP within the show?

OF COURSE! =D

- Is the pairing cannon?

Well, it’s still not announced but I truly hope it will be. To me, it IS cannon! >=D

 
In regards to the fandom...


- Is your affection for the pairing based more in the actuality of the show or in the fandom?

I have to say it is based on both. I love the moments they have in the show, although they aren’t as many as I which there would be, it still has me squealing in my seat, begging for more. The fandom world only increases those squeals and my love for it. =D

- Is this pairing very popular within the fandom?

I think it’s fairly popular! =D I find a lot of bashing for the pairing too though and it makes me sad. It makes me happier, though, when I see someone supporting the shipping. =D It’s CANNON I say! CANNON!

- Does this pairing ever create drama in the fandom?

Nope, not really. There is a love triangle though. Hina-chan likes Naru-kun, Naru-kun likes Sakura, and Sakura likes Sasuke. There’s a slight chance Kiba-kun likes Hina-chan but it hasn’t been confirmed (that I know of). That’s the only drama there is but it’s nothing serious.

- Does the fandom's interpretation of the pairing ever upset you?

Sometimes they make Hina-chan look like a whore >.> That’s the only thing that upsets me. Other than that, nope! ^^

- Have you ever drawn fanart or written fanfiction for this pairing?

I have many ideas for a NaruHina fanfic but haven’t really written one yet. As for fanart, I’m not that great in drawing so I haven’t mustered up the courage to draw some just yet.

- Do you have others' fanart/fanfiction of this pairing saved on your computer?

Not on my computer but on the sites, yes! =D
 

Last but not least…

- What would you do if both parties of your pairings would fall in love with someone else in the show?

SUE!….Nah, I’d cry. Seriously, I just LOVE this pairing so much. If that were to happen, I’d be so devastated. I can’t picture Naru-kun with anyone else but Hina-chan! Although I think Hina-chan looks cute with Kiba-kun but nothing compares to Naru-kun.

- What would you do if your pairing actually became cannon?

I’d shout, squeal, glomp people like crazy, spin around like an idiot, fall onto my bed, squeal and shout some more, then die of happiness. X3

- What was the craziest idea you ever had for your pairing?

Idk…XD Haha. I was thinking of doing the 100 themes challenges for them but I’m not sure just yet.

- If your pairing should ever become cannon, how would it happen?

Well, not to make it too corny or anything….(trust me, it still will be XD)
Naru-kun will return to Konoha after bringing back Sasuke and stopping Orochimaru, the Akatsuki, and any other enemies of Konoha. He’ll be announced as Hokage and he’ll walk up to Hina-chan in the training grounds and give her his response to her beautiful confession. He’d tell her how happy he was to have someone love him so much after so long of being hated. He’d tell her that all his childhood he thought of her as weird but that’s because he didn’t know why she was so shy around him but now that he knew (this is where he smiles at her, that lopsided toothy grin of his) he wanted nothing more than to hold on to that love. He’ll kiss her before she can say anything else and the rest is history. (Omg I’m just a fluff machine, aren’t I? XD)

- And at last: Describe the chances of your couple in percent.
100%!!!!….Ok I’m not sure really XD To me it’s 100% because that’s how much I love it. After reading her confession, it could be 50% or maybe higher but I’ll say 50% to keep it fair.


Alright, so my OTP (One TRUE Pairing) is Naruhina. That doesn't mean, however that I don't support other pairings. Just to name a few, I also love these pairings: Bleach: Ichigo and Rukia, Fairy Tail: Natsu and Lucy, Rave Master: Haru and Elie, and Lovely Complex: Koizumi and Otani. Those are pairings I love with just as much passion as my OTP but they don't overpower my love for Naruhina! XP Hehe.

"She's wearing such a fucked up shirt." I looked up, carelessly listening in on the conversation going on ahead of me. I blinked in surprise when I realized who these people were looking at. The three freshman looked back at each other and laughed. I found myself flushed with embarrassment as I looked down at my clothing. A simple black t-shirt. No cuts. No stains. No print.

I let my head hang low, not trusting myself to look up at anyone. Why was I hated so much? What was so revolting about me that kept people away from me? Was it the way I dressed? Was it the way I walked? The way a talked? The fact I rarely talked? Was it my shyness? What was so horrible that kept these people from befriending me?

I arrived at my locker, holding back the tears that threatened to fall. I would not shed a tear for these people. These horrible people didn't deserve my sorrow and tears. I hated them. I wished them gone.

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I sighed as I arrived to my Physics class. I casually took my seat at the front and was immediately attacked by careless insults from the girl to my right. Was she aware of how much her playful yet careless insults hurt me? I just shrugged them off, not wishing to let something else upset me again.

I didn't know how it happened but suddenly, I found myself be drawn into her conversation with the senior at our table.

"Don't say that Joanna. You're going to make a lot of friends when you go to college." Lilia was a senior and wise for her age. Although her words didn't sound as comforting as they were meant to be, I could always see the logic behind them.

"I don't know. I've just been losing all my friends lately. They're either going to college, moving, or they're turned into sluts. I just don't want to deal with it anymore. The only friend I have left is Natalie here but she's getting tired of me. Right whore?" I looked up when she addressed the last part to me. I frowned at her insult. I wasn't a whore. I knew it was just her way of calling her friends "friend" but it was still insulting to me and I did not consider her my friend. Would someone who insulted me and attacked me with sarcastic comments on a daily basis truly be considered a friend?

"You can't just give up. You won't go far if you always give up on everything you find challenging in life," I ignored her question and got right to business. I doubted what she was talking about was true. She had her perfect life.

"Oh shut up Natalie. You've got the perfect grades. You don't have a say in this," although she masked her anger well behind her obviously rude comeback, I could still sense she wasn't pleased by my response.

"I'm just saying that you shouldn't let the littlest things affect you. Sure, it's a big deal because friends are an important part of your life but there are plenty of opportunities for you. Things don't work out for a reason. Another chance will come. Just don't give up." I was such a hypocrite. Giving up was what I had been thinking of doing since day one. So why hadn't I done so by now?

This seemed to shut her up though. She turned back to Lilia and I got back to work. It troubled me that someone like her would be discussing such a personal matter out loud, though. I looked around for a moment to ponder. Were these people capable of sorrow?

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I came to a stop by the parking lot to wait for my mother to arrive and take me home. I looked around for a bit and paced, bored and impatient to be home now. I hated this place and didn't want to stay here any longer than I had to. I decided to take out my iPod to listen to some music while I waited.

I turned the dial to Trading Yesterday and put my music on random. I closed my eyes and let my mind focus on the music...on the lyrics. The song "Shattered" suddenly came up and I opened my eyes slowly and watched my classmates walk past me.

I took a good look at their expressions, at the appearance, at their aurora. My eyes saddened as I watched one girl wipe at her swollen eyes, masking the unshed tears. I wandered off to a boy walking with his friends, his smile somehow looked faked. I switched to a girl walking home on her own, a broken heart drawn on her wrist. My eyes watered as more and more people passed passed me.

These people....they truly were human after all... All these years I wasted hating them for the pain they put me through...when all along, they had problems of their own.

I closed my eyes and leaned back against the wall, the final verse of the song ringing in my ear.

These people were just like me. They cried. They got hurt. They were shattered ones too. I suddenly found myself unable to hate them. They caused me so much pain, yet, this realization woke me up. How can I hate someone who is hurt just like me? I'll change their minds. I'll give them hope. Someday....someday I'll take everyone's pain away....

I want to say Time has been going by so slow but that wouldn't be an appropriate enough description of Time. If anything, I feel Time has come to a stand still. I found this out this morning when I questioned the date for today. A Tuesday. Less than 2 months away before this school year is over. It doesn't feel like Time is moving forward. It doesn't feel like its moving at all. I'm just in a void, moving but never going anywhere. I had completely forgotten about yesterday - even went as far as question whether or not yesterday really happened or not. Where did my Monday go?

I was questioning a lot of things today - mostly my past. I hated how I was before I met him. I was an emotionless wreck. I pondered whether I knew what friendship, love, and fun was. I don't think I did. I knew I wanted to cling to people. I knew I wanted to smile with others. I knew I wanted my heart to skip beats and my face to flush. But I didn't know why.

After I met him, I found out the reason why. Because it made me happy. I was happy with having people who cared for me. I was happy to be able to share my fun and excitement with others. I was happy being around him because whenever he was near, I felt safe. I felt complete. I felt my heart skip beats and my stomach flutter with those thousands of butterflies everyone would tell me about. I was happy.

I never truly knew the meaning of sadness until he left. His abandonment hurt the most of all. I had had people walk in and out of my life before, countless times but it never affected me as much as his departure. Before, I had been used to it. Before, I didn't know the true meaning and happiness of friendship. So it didn't hurt - not until he walked in and out of my life and took a part of me with him.

I came to caution everything. I feared love and people. I fear happiness. I knew that no matter what, everyone would end up hurting me once again. I didn't want a repeat of my past. I had never wished to get close. I just wished to be. I wished to move on with nothing to hold me back. His appearance in my life helped me break out from that cloud of loneliness I was in but his disappearance made me sink into an abyss of endless sorrow. So when I felt I had found another significant person in my life, my heart was desperately shouting out to me: Don't trust her! Get away while you still have a chance! She'll only end up hurting you like the others!

I ignored my aching heart. I was desperate for company. I was desperate for some light in my darkened tunnel of solitude. I was grateful for this decision because I ended up meeting someone who was so much like me in so many ways. She awakened my long forgotten happiness. She gave me a reason to live for again. She gave me so much strength. I knew then what purpose, what goal, what reason I had to keep fighting, keep moving forward. I had to unite with this person. I needed to save her because by saving her, I would be able to save myself.

With time, I realized that my first thoughts on people were true, no matter how much I had come to want them to be false. No matter what, no matter who, everyone is going to end up hurting you. I endured so much with this purpose. The pain, the agony...it became almost too much for me to handle. I hurt her too. Though I'm certain the pain I caused her was a thousand times worse than the pain I would endure when I was not able to help her, I felt at times alone because of this. I had set my goal. I would save her from her unhappiness so that together we would be happy in the future. But whenever sometime came her way to remind her of our distance, my goal would feel like a useless attempt for happiness. I would lose my strength, lose whatever peace of mind I had captivated at that moment and feel, once again, all alone. All alone like the day he left my world. And I would ask myself all over again: Is this pain worth it? Yes. Yes it was. It had to be. Because a follow up to my primary thoughts on people was: We have to find who are the ones who are worth out pain. She was worth the pain and so much more.

So why then, was I pondering today the possibility of letting it all go? Why then, did I stop to wonder if perhaps, leaving it all behind as my past and never look back on it would be an easier task to do? I cried. Not only would it be an easy task to do in time, it would also be the hardest. To forget all my memories with the people I had come to believe would be a part of my happy future...it was just unimaginable. The pain I would feel for days before I forced myself to feel nothing at all...would it make me an awful person? If I wasn't able to help and save the person that meant the world to me then perhaps I truly wasn't meant to do any good out of my life. Perhaps, going back to my books and studies would be best. To shun myself from the outside once more. To hide in the protection of my four, empty walls. To close up my heart to anything and everything. To live in that abyss of nothingness once more. Would I be able to handle it?

Time is in a standstill....and I beg for it to start up again.... for that piece of grain stuck in between to fall...to fall and allow time to flow once more. When will time flow again? How long until I feel useless once more?....How long...?

Lately I've had a lot of things in mind... I wonder whether I've lost a friend again or I'm just being paranoid. I've found myself crying at school more often lately but no one notices. If they do, they say nothing. A part of me feels its best that way but another wishes for them to speak up, to do something about it. I want someone to be here to hug me and cry with me, to tell me everything will be alright. So why then do I find myself pushing people away?

I'm trying not to think about my past. I don't want to remember the pain I've gone through before and I most definitely don't want to believe my past is repeating itself. I don't want to live in this paranoia state anymore.

I want to leave this place so badly so I try my best to lose myself in my imagination but with no motivation, it's difficult to do so now. I miss my friend so badly... I wish I knew... if I did something wrong....

Gah. I don't want to be depressed anymore. I should focus on my manga right now. I read up to Chapter 11 of 07-Ghost today. I love that manga right now! ^^ I don't usually like yaoi so it was shocking for me to actually find myself supporting the pairing MikageXTeito. They're bond is just so loving and very touching that I couldn't help but find myself falling in love with idea of them being together in a more romantic sort of relationship. Mikage reminded me so much of someone I loved/love. Only difference, this person from my past has changed and is no longer like Mikage-sama. But that doesn't matter. Mikage-sama is so much better! Hehe.

I told sis today I would make a fanfic about the series once I caught up. I really look forward to it! I'm plotting ideas for it right now. I hope I can get some motivation for it soon. I want it to be perfect for sis. ^^

I'm planning on starting Pandora Hearts tomorrow since it looks like I won't get a chance to do so tonight and if I do start it, I'll probably just get to chapter 3. I also need to catch up on Rave Master, Hakushaku no Yousei, Vampire Knight, and Code Geass (and watch the animes to all of them XD). God, I have so much to read. XD Hopefully I can be caught up before summer because I'm going to so busy in the summer.

Also, I've been longing to go to an anime convetion but with my friends. Since the only friend I feel is still there for me whole-heartedly is sis, I want to go with her the most but I've always pictured anime conventions to occur with a large group of close friends. It looks a lot more fun that way. I wanted to go to the San Diego summer comic-con because Hiro-sensei was said to attend but I don't think that's going to happen afterall. I'll have to keep track of cons in 2010 so I can attend one (hopefully I can find someone to go with by then? T___T I truly truly wish).

Anyways... I've had my fair share of crying tonight, I think I should head off now. Anime and manga can only do so much to patch up my wounded soul. I'll contemplate the future some more tomorrow. Ja ne!

P.S: I'm still wondering what "P.S" means.

P.SS: New chapter of Fairy Tail was awesome! =D And suspenseful! Chapter 132 upset me because Wendy's appearance (although as cute as she is) clashes with my FT OC Naomi Tsukino. I created her about 6 to 8 months before Wendy was released. Naomi-chan's personality and appearance is way too similar to Wendy's T__T it makes me so sad to see my original characted not as original as I thought she was. Also, the fact that Wendy's powers seem to be very alarming (possibly powerful or evil) also resembles Naomi-chan's own hidden abilities. Gah, I hate these similarities so much. Including the introduction of Oracion Seis. Their existance is clashing greatly with how I had pictured Naomi-chan's storyline to develop. At first I felt "=O it's like Naomi-chan was meant to be part of Fairy Tail!" but the creation of Wendy ruined my original ideas of my OC. Anyways, I'm rambling, no one cares, people are going to call me a copy cat now, Naomi-chan is no longer cute. Whatever. T___T Ja ne....

OMG OMG OMG OMG!!! I'm so happy right now! My heart is pounding and and and and I can't stop smiling!!! I just got back from watching L: Change the World in theatres and and and and and and I LOVE L-KUN!!! Omg, words cannot explain how much I love that man. I ended up taking my mom and little brother with me (I needed a ride and my little brother has always been currious about my infatuation with L-kun) and so it was a bit nerve-racking for me at first since I knew their opinions would affect me.

Today, at first, was kinda depressing for me and tiring. I had no one to hang out with in the morning for 15 minutes so I just stood at the wall, all alone, waiting for class to start. I felt so alone and shunned. I felt people staring at me and a couple of kids passing by laughed and called me a loser. I desperately wanted sis there. I tried not to cry but I got real close to it. The rest of the day was boring and tiring and I felt like going home and falling asleep. The only things that kept me from being fully depressed were 1, reading 07-Ghost so I can fangirl over something with sis and 2, watching L-kun later at 7:30.

I was very disappointed though, because I didn't get to go home right after school. My mom went to a whole bunch of little stores to get some things she wanted for her new diabetic diet. I got mad at her for it cause I wanted to be home so I could catch up on 07-Ghost like I had promised sis. I arrived home at around 6 but my mom made me do my homework while she walked around the block a couple of times. If I didn't do my homework, she wasn't going to let me go see the movie. T___T

I finished by 7 and we rushed to the theatre. I LOVED THE MOVIE! XD Well, I had seen the subbed at the end of 2008 but I was very excited for the dubbed version. Only thing I was disapointed with was the low volume on the voices. Everything else was so loud but it was difficult to hear them talk most of the time. I didn't mind as much though, since I had seen it before and knew the dialogue (I actually have the movie XD). I got a bit mad though because the VA for Light/Kira did the voice of F. T___T I like F but I don't like Kira! Bleh, whatever.

Anyways, I had so much fun watching the extras at the end of the movie and and and and the best part was this: AUTOGRAPH FROM KENICHI-SAMA!!! =D All those who attended had a chance to win an autograph from Kenichi-sama. I signed up for it already (about 6 times XD, I'm so awful haha) so I'm really hoping I win. I desperately want this! This could be the closes to L-kun I will ever get. It aches my heart just imagining me not winning.

Anyways, I won't let such things ruin my good evening. I got home really late (later than I had calculated) so I missed talking to sis and reading some more 07-Ghost. T____T That disappointed me BUT tomorrow is Friday and I got a new lappy. THAT MEANS MORE TIME ON LAPPY! >=D I shall spend AAAAAALLL day reading tomorrow then! >=D And once I'm done with 07-Ghost, I'll watch the epies that are out and then read the other manga sis told me to read (Oh dear god, it's name always escapes me. It starts with an "H" though! XD). Anyways, it's really late, I should be in bed (BUT I'M JUST SO EXCITED!!!). I think I'll try to calm down and go to sleep or else I'll be sleeping in class tomorrow (such a welcoming idea...XD). So, ja ne! =D

P.S: There were some L-kun cosplayers at the theatre and at the end of the movie, they ran across the bottom floor a couple of times. It was so cute! X3 One of them even did L-kun's run and also walked with his back straight. Haha. I loved it. That also made my day. They left before I could talk to them, though T___T and I had no camera to take picies with them. Damn. Maybe next time =D (This got me really excited for an anime convention. The fact my mom actually enjoyed the movie might mean something in the future for me! I might be able to go to an anime convention soon! =D ~crosses fingers~) Anyways, this has been a really long "P.S"....I should go before it gets any longer....JA NE! XD

P.S.S: Does anyone even know what "P.S" stands for? O.o? And is "P.S.S" the proper abreviation? Or is it "P.P.S"? What does THAT mean?.... XD I'm so weird. BYE!

I'm so happy right now!!! =D My new lappy finally arrived today! I have all my files saved in my iPod so I'm hoping to transfer them all either tomorrow or Friday. I'm so excited!!! X3 Also, I'm starting a new manga that sis wanted me to read so I'm mostly making this post to ramble on about it, lol. TIME FOR SCREENIES! =D


EPIC PUNCH!! XD Haha, gomen I just couldn't help myself. I just did not expect that so soon. XD

Haha I loved this this panel cause of his reaction.  He's so "modest" XD Pshttt ~pokes him with a stick~

 Haha! What a perv! XD I didn't expect that from the teach. But then again I wasn't sure if someone threw those at him or not XD Oh well I still found this funny. Hehe.

 SO CUTE! So violent! XD Lol. I love their moments XD Haha.

 THIS WAS SO CUTE!!! Awww!!! I also got tears in my eyes. SO KAWAII! =D They're such awesome friends! Hehe.


I like this manga so far! =D It has a lot of small humorous sceens here and there so it makes it very entertaining. The storyline is not fully developed so I'm still a bit lost but it's unraveling itself quickly. It's very unique in my opinion. I love it cause its so creative! =D I love the characters Teito and Mikage too so far. Teito is so cool! =D I want more of Mikage though because he's so hillarious. XD Lol. Anyways, Chapter 2 will have to wait for tomorrow. Ja ne! =D

Another meme from my sis xmidnightrain ! XD Hehe. Also, I wanted to post a couple of drawings I did just for fun. Here goes!!!

MEME TIME!!!

01) Are you currently in a serious relationship?
02) What was your dream growing up?
03) What talent do you wish you had?
04) If I bought you a drink what would it be?
05) Favorite vegetable?
06) What was the last book you read?
07) What zodiac sign are you?
08) Any Tattoos and/or Piercings? Explain where.
09) Worst Habit?
10) If you saw me walking down the street would you offer me a ride?
11) What is your favorite sport?
12) Do you have a Pessimistic or Optimistic attitude?
13) What would you do if you were stuck in an elevator with me?
14) Worst thing to ever happen to you?
15) Tell me one weird fact about you.
16) Do you have any pets?
17) What if I showed up at your house unexpectedly?
18) What was your first impression of me?
19) Do you think clowns are cute or scary?
20) If you could change one thing about how you look, what would it be?
21) Would you be my crime partner or my conscience?
22) What color eyes do you have?
23) Ever been arrested?
24) Bottle or can soda?
25) If you won $10,000 today, what would you do with it?
27) What's your favorite place to hang out at?
28) Do you believe in ghosts?
29) Favorite thing to do in your spare time?
30) Do you swear a lot?
31) Biggest pet peeve?
32) In one word, how would you describe yourself?
33) Do you believe/appreciate romance?
34) Favourite and least favourite food?
35) Do you believe in God?
36) Will you repost this so I can fill it out and do the same for you?

DRAWING TIME!!!


L Lawliet: i76.photobucket.com/albums/j23/AngeLInPnk92/My%20Drawings/LLawlietsketch.png
My OC Nedelya Lohart-Atkins: i76.photobucket.com/albums/j23/AngeLInPnk92/My%20Drawings/122448038615-31588.png
Drawing of me/My TegakiE ID drawing: i76.photobucket.com/albums/j23/AngeLInPnk92/My%20Drawings/RandomDrawing1.jpg

Hehe, I took this from my sis xmidnightrain Anyways, I was bored and my sis showed me this! I found it cute so here goes! =D

01. One word to describe me:
02. Your first impression of me:
03. Nicknames you would give me and call me:
04. Something you always wanted to tell me/ask me:
05. Would you repost this on your journal so I can fill it out for you?

    For once I can post something a bit more cheerful. Even though I'm currently sick, I feel like a new door has opened for me. I was feeling awful last night because I started to remember what has happened these past couple of months. I felt I lost my best friend when in reality she was the one feeling she lost me. It made me feel like an asshole because it took me this long to finally realize that all this time I was only looking at the story from my point of view but not hers. I could only imagine then at that moment how it felt like for her to suddenly think I left her. Here is the girl who i spent years pouring out my secrets and feelings to. The girl who made the world seem ten times beautiful that it really is. The girl who made me believe in myself when it seemed almost impossible to do so. The girl who is the reason for my current existence.
    I felt I had to apologize to her. I had already apologized before when she confronted me about it a couple of days ago but now... I felt like I had to beg her for forgiveness. I cried for hours last night, only getting about four hours of sleep. I kept saying over and over again how sorry I was. I knew she would forgive me but I couldn't understand why! I felt I didn't deserve to be forgiven and for that I was prepared to keep apologizing for an eternity. She just simply said that she no longer was consumed with pain and that she forgave me because I was her best friend. I can't accept it so easily. She might have forgiven me but I feel I can't forgive myself that easily. But for now, I'm happy that our friendship is ten times better than how it was before.
    I think what I needed most all those times before was her back by my side. I missed her soooo much. And all this time, it was a misunderstanding. While I thought she hated me and I tried to distance myself as to not get hurt by her like everyone else, she thought I had moved on from her and she felt no hatred for me. Now with things patched up and better than before, I feel like I can face anything! I feel I can look forward to the future. I can see a glee of light again. I can dream again and be content with my dreams instead of always questioning why none of my dreams or wishes come true. Sure I'm still upset about how horrible my life is and how my love life isn't any better and I feel like giving up on it all, but now with things better with my best friend / sis I can dream and be happy with just that.
    I just hope that all wounded ties with the rest of my friends become patched up so that this summer will be truly memorable. If that happens, I'll be able to survive my last two years in high school and take that step out the door to seek my happiness. And with my friends by my side, I can survive anything. "Because you live, I live." Thank you sis for saving me from my darkness. In return, I shall save you from yours. And this goes for the rest of my ANIME AMIGOS!!! X3

     I'm feeling extra weird today. Maybe it's cause it's raining and I got a chance to stand under the rain so I'm extra happy. ^.^  I'm slowly raising my grade up in AP World History class and if i do great on my final like i did on this past test, then I might actually pass this semester XD. That put me in a okay mood the other day so yay! Hehe. Today I'm happy cause it was raining after school so I got a chance to be under the rain while waiting to be picked up. Sadly I couldn't do a little funny dance in the rain XD that's what I really feel like doing but at least I was outside my room when it rained this time. ^.^ God I'm such a weirdo for making such a huge fuss over the rain. XD But I just love the rain so much! I've been through a lot of good and bad memories under the rain. Well, at least I'm not feeling down for once. ^.^